The Last Time

Why does evrything in this world have a last time to it? Both good and bad thing in life, have to have a last time to them. You realize that what had been happening wont happen any longer. If it marks an end to certain miseries and the bad days of one’s life, then “the last” day is most welcome. But why do the happy moments also have a last time??

Yes…I may not be intelligible to anyone reading this, but today, I write this post in a very nostalgic mood. It feels very weird. I know that changes are a part of life and one must learn to graciously accept them and mould oneself according to what lies ahead. Yet, anything I think, fails to pacify me. Maybe it is because I am a Capri.(Yes, it very true that your sun sign speaks volumes about your behaviour and reaction toward situations. Sn, will u vouch for that please??) Read any Linda stuff and u’ll agree that capris do find it difficult to start their lives all over again, in a completely different environment, specially, if they are very happy with the way things had been shaping up.(no people.u are reading the right stuff. This is MY blog. Not sn’s. I have also got a lot into astro, u know:P)

I remember my last day in school. It was like a tradition and a fashion to cry on the last day of school. Everyone, including my teachers, thought that I would be one of the first ones to break into sobs. But they were terribly surprised to see my wishing everyone adieu with a BIG 100mega watt smile on my face. Infact, I had a few classmates even tell me that they never expected me to leave school that way. But the truth was that I was extremely happy to leave school coz I knew that future could definitely not be worse than the last 4 years of my school life.

But I cant say the same today.i think I have enjoyed every bit of the last two years of my life. I might have been living in a fantasy world all through, but I at least had the freedom to dream. I was able to express myself the way I wanted to. People knew me for what I was and how I did , rather than nurture preconceived notions about me.

But the good things in life always come to an end faster. They are always in a hurry to reach the finishing line. And today, I think I have reached that line. But I am not going to brood over what I am leaving behind. Rather, I am going to move ahead with all the good experiences (and a few of the not so pleasant ones as well) that I have had so that in future, I can always look back at these two years and know that it will bring a smile to my face:)

MISCELLENOUS

*Yawn!!!*…. This is precisely what I’ve been feeling since the past few days. Ive become a big lazy-bone and feel like doing absolutely nothing. Ive been sleeping like a log. Nothing happening in the study field as well.( I know sn and tj will definitely erupt into a huge round of protests, reading this, but c’mon guyz…even I have the right to put my feet up and do nothing for a change.)Winter… the culprit behind this. Who in there right mind would ever wanna come out of da beautiful world of deep slumber??

Also…I must confess that the increasing number of combined classes, with tj and sn, that i seem to be having at my tutorial, has really spoilt me. I mean, its not my fault. Um da only girl in a class of 27 guys. Now…though I might be in quite an envious postion for some of my friends*ahem*, it gets really bugging at times. No one to talk to and specially giggle….lol!!!! but since my wishes are being granted pretty often these days, I have been having the pleasure of tolerating some really pathetic classes, in the company of my friends. I mean, its not the teachers fault dat he wat he teaches is boring right???? So the pic u can c is wat we do to stop ourselves from falling asleep….

. well….this is just a mere trailer of what we do ( i.e sn,tj and myself…duh!!!) . it shows a tabular representation of our mental condition on Wednesdays, when we have a 3 hour maths class. Next to the table u can see all thetas and psi and eppu drawn. We’ve got to do something to keep ourselves alive, right??? tj has got a full copy devoted to all this. Its our life saver. we keep writing whatever we wanna say and keep passing it between the three of us. Me and tj use to do this at our school also…he!!he!!! good old days!!!!!

Guyz….tell me something. Is my handwriting that bad??? The pic u can see on the left, is that of a paragraph written in my handwriting. Okay… I think I can increase the height of my alphabets a bit, but otherwise I think my writing is pretty decent. Wat say???? But, English prof at my college doesn’t agree with me. I had gone to him, along with sn, to see my English marks. I got pretty decent marks. And as he stood there giving us tips on how we can improve our marks, he curtly pointed out,” you need to improve your handwriting. Maybe then , I will increase the number of marks I give you.” Not fair!!!!!!


Damn my comp!!!!! it just automatically shuts down as soon as I get connected to the net. Finally!!! It decided to take pity on me and last long enough for me to post this. As it is , I have had a “superb” *sarcy look* morning. Had to see the face of my tutorials center head whom we’ve christened “yamraj”. Look at his gall!!! Agreed that people cant seem to pronounce my name properly. Abhildasaaa, avilassssa, aubhildasa, abhipsa, avilipsa …. These are just a few of the various forms that my name has taken. But today was the height. “yamraj” calls up one of the teachers to find out if he’s free to take our class in the evening, and in course of the conversation says- “ sir …. woh ….. gupta ,aur aur ek do jan puch rahe hain ki aaj aap class le payenge???”
Gupta??????? * horrified !!!! bewildered*
Me: sir!!!! MY NAME IS “NOT” GUPTA!!!!!!
Yamraj: oh!!! Whatever!!!
I gave him a disgusted look and stormed outta his room.
I don’t know what else I will have to tolerate!!!! God bless me!!!!

ANGRAZEEE ANYONE?????

There is something else which I must tell u guyz. We’ve got this English teacher who teaches English at our tutorial( it’s a complimentary course. had to be, coz no one in there right mind would opt for it by choice!!!!) last Monday, he was teaching us how to write a paragraph on smthn * rolling eyes* . he was dictating it out for the “not from English medium” students. It went something like this…

1. WHY PEOPLE WEAR CLOTHES
Blah…blah…. At first, it is a basic need for covering of the nakedness. (lol!!!) People in the primitive days use to wear barks or leaves (barks?????) but in due course of time they went on wearing clothes due to blessing of science. ( please “science”….bless me that I may pass my 12th…rofl) …..blah…blah….

2. SMOKING SHOULD BE BANNED
(yeah!!! Right… my tutorial is the first place where this should be preached…) blah…blah… smoking is indeed detrimental.( *applause applause* by the way does he know the meaning???) it has become a part and parcel of life of an active smoker. It is indeed mistaken and erratic that smoking enhances aristocratic attitude of a person.( I agree…but it could have been put in a better, grammatically correct sentence)…blah…blah….. smoking makes the man destroyed but at the same time, it makes the whole family ruined.
Person addicted to smoking adopt the ill means such as crime, burglary and theft. ( I must ask the people I know, who smoke, which of the above ,do they secretly resort to????) blah…blah…blah….

3. PREVENTING TRAFFIC ACCIDENT
Accidents happen accidentally, but it is erratic( lol!!!!lol!!! rofl!!!!!!!!!!) keeping in mind the population explosion the roads get conjested……blah…blahh…blah…. Busy roads must be widened and lane driving must be introduced. Short circuit cameras should be installed ( lol!!! I actually burst out laughing. Couldn’t control myself anymore. “short circuit????” and I had been thinking all this while that they were called “close” circuit cameras…..lol!!!!!)

Seriously….. no offence meant. Its just that his classes are hilarious.

WELCOME BACK

Hey! I know its been long since a posted something on my blog but seriously, I just don’t realize how time flies these days….. with my college and tutorial classes reopened, I suddenly have sooo..much to do ..(he!!he!!! so…much to think bout…) that I don’t know from where to start. But I must tell you bout the welcome we got to our dear tutorial after the puja vacations..(yep.. they r not ‘that’ heartless u know… surprising thou it may sound..they r thoughtful enough to give us a ten day “break”, literally.).
So… we (i.e. snehudi, and myself ) went to class the first day, expecting the usual classes. But…. Our tut is a place where the whole concept of probability can be challenged coz the most improbable things seem to happen there. So, as soon as we arrived we were greeted by the best news students could probably receive- both the teachers who were s’posed to take our class that day, chose to take pity on us and decided not to turn up. It would have been “its da time to disco” kinda moment for us, BUT…(c…there always a ‘but’ in these kinda happy moments) the “management” ( who know only how to manage their pockets well) decided to use their best weapon against us… TEST… gawd!! Initially we thought it was all a big joke and laughed it off, but gradually reality began to sink in.. we realized that the management, which lacked a sence of humour cudnt possibly be making an “ october fool” outa us. So basically, we had to sahofy the torture dat day. Quite unfair of our teachers also… wat say?? They shouldnt have abandoned their students that way, but I guess everyone needs a break…!!!!

BLACK TUESDAY

Well!! i dont really think dat dis is da best way to start one's first post, on one's first attempt to blog(no, actually second.lol), but well...dats wat iam!! Actually...this is wat prompted me to start blogging (oops!!sorry... "reblogging") . so i guess its best to write bout it...so here it goes...
Actually, before plunging into the story, it will b better to tell u guyz dat iam a total capricorn. Yep... my friends will too gladly vouch for dat. From my "wierd moodswinds" to my obsession with stuff, um a capri to da hilt. No..actually i may be having a bit of my ascendent's influence..(Gawd!!snehudi..wont u b pleased!!) Anyways...so...its bout yestrday. u know, sometimes u go through these wierd phases in ur life when nothing seems to go right for u. well!! this had been happening with me for quite sometime. But yesterday took da cake. I went through an alchemy of emotions.
I woke very happy and all ready to face a new day, still rejuvinated by my previous evening's(thats monday) dandia-dancing(p.s. i simply luuuuv dancing. any form of it. Just music n me....) Though initially i was quite skeptical bout going for the the dance, coz i didnt want to miss my tutorial classes...(okay!! no need to roll ur eyes... i told u i was a typical capricorn), my passion for dance took the better of me.lolz.... so i did go and enjoyed myself throughly... The icing on da cake was when i came to know that nothing much had been done in class and the teacher had only done t.p.(time pass !!) I couldnt believe my luck.. All of a sudden i started feeling the festive spirit around me and practically waltzed my way into the evening. That was when my bubble of happiness was ruthlessly punctured . As usual i went for my tutorial classes in da evening(remind me to dedicate a whole post to it and tell u bout the people n things that happen there. on second thoughts, one post wont b enough to completely describe the atrocious functioning of the management and da wierd people present there) Anyways.. as usual me, along with snehudi n tejudi(my gr8 friends and life-savers at the insti. thats bcoz am da only girl admist 27 guys in my batch!!) were having our usual in-da-corridor chat wen one of da teacher who teaches us chemy beckoned me and started to congratulate me on winning the chemistry Olympiad. Man... i was bewildered.. not bcoz i had won it, but bcoz i had not even appeared for it. When i told him this, he couldnot believe it. He said," what?? u didnot even appear?? and here i was knowing that u would have definitely done well at it.." Man... it was perhaps the one of the most dissapointing moments of my life. I know that i might b making a huge issue outta nothing, but trust me,hurting people who believe in me is one of my worst fears.
Well... this was not it. it could just be called the beginning. The entire 45 mins of his class,he kept expressing his disappointment. How i passed time is something that i cant express. I felt like burying myself somewhere and not emerging out till that teacher underwent a memory transplant. anyways. Before the next class started (and that was almost immediately coz da next teacher, also a chemy one, dosent waste time jumping from one class to the other.. oops!! i hope he doesnt come across this. lolz..)the guy whom i had asked whether anything had been taught the previous day, nicely tells me that sir had only taught a bit of nomenclature. Before i could register the shock of not coming prepared to class and worst still, realizing that that guy had had the guts to lie to me,the teacher walked in. And lo behold!! He had also developed a sudden urge to test us on what he had taught the previous day. As a gave him bewildered looks,hoping he would take pity on me, i realized that i had no other option but to answer that test and face the humiliation. So i went ahead with it and answered what ever i could using my common sence.( yes tejudi nd snehudi, i have loads of it unlike wat u think. huh!!!) Though i managed to do better than wat i expected... i had further dissapointment to face. That was when i realized that my answers to a compitative exam which i had appeared for, the prevoius sunday were all terribly wrong. That was it... i couldnt bear it.
I spent the rest ofthe evening(whatever of it was left) brooding over the events of the day. Till now i havent been able to figure where i went wrong. Iam a very dissapointed and frusrated person at present. Again i have been proved thats all fair in love and war(i.e; if u call academic compitition a war). I simply dont know where to go from here. i have lost all the zeal to enjoy the pujas. All i could think of was to pen (or rather type)my thoughts in the hope that i would be able to get some answers from it(half expecting it to speak to me.. lolz... i guess um hallucinating). Hope that i get some answers by da time i decide to post somthing else. And... that better be soon...