CYBER AURA

Last night, as me and Sun sat munching on something that was supposed to be our dinner and Shi tried her best to study (which ofcourse, she miserably failed to do) we generally started discussing bout ‘destiny’ and how we meet people in our life who later get connected to it in some way and how all of us met each other when things were actually supposed to be quite different. As I have already mentioned in my post- ‘college..’, I first met Shi through ‘Orkut’ (Need i say anything bout this site??) Had we not decided to become roomies then, then most probably Shi would have been sharing a room with Sun now. Soon our conversation drifted towards what our initial impression bout each other was.

Shi- ‘u remember when I asked you if you wanted to share a room with me? You were like, “yeah! Sure” Had we not spoken back then, I would have been sharing room space with Sun or probably with some complete stranger!’

Me- ‘ Yeah…. I swear! But u know… initially, i thought you that you had oodles of attitude. I mean, after seeing your scraps and stuff . You are quite a different person in reality. A much better one. ’

Shi- *laughs* ‘ Dats weird, coz initially even I thought that you had an attitude problem. (Me?? And Attitude??? *aghast* NO! NOT possible…I am sure u guys will vouch for that. *hopeful look* ) Infact when my mom saw your pic, she was like ‘ your roomie looks pretty smart. Iam sure she must be pretty popular wherever she goes’

(I would have been floating in air on having received this compliment, had the previous remark bout me having an attitude *sob sob* not punctured my bubble of happiness, even before it blew up.)

Sun- (who had thoughtfully been listening to our convo) ‘ you know, I would call it CYBER AURA.’

Both me and Shi stared at her. Infact Sun herself sat there trying to comprehend what she meant by that, so that she could answer our questioning looks.

Sun -‘What??!! Don’t look at me like that!! I simply made this word up, right now. ‘

( Didn’t I mention anything bout our madhouse and its inhabitants anywhere on this blog?? :P)

But you know what? This word- 'Cyber Aura' and the fact that it actually defines something which does exist (though we are pretty oblivious of it), did set my mind ticking....

(p.s. looks like I’ll havta now include ‘shi’ and ‘sun’ in my label list coz they seem to be giving me loads to blog bout ;)

@suk- yes...i have removed word verifiation from my comment pg (:P) so now u can leave comments without grumbling :P)

BHOOKAD CLUB-1

With the mess food sucking big time, exams causing a nightmare and the thought of sitting and thinking yet again about where to have dinner that night , being enough to drive one’s voracious pangs of hunger away, Abhu, shi, sun and mek (check the post titled “college…” to figure out these abbreviations) decided to MAKE dinner that night.

It all started with Abhu smsing Shi to buy some fruits on her way back from the reading room, because that night she felt like having fruit salad for dinner. At 8:30 Abhu gets an anxious message from Shi, asking her if she was feeling alright. Shi couldn’t believe that Abhu wanted to have FRUIT salad for dinner. (huh! See what a wrong impression people have about Abhu?? Agreed she is not too fond of fruits but does that mean she cant ,for a change, decide to have em??)

So, Shi returns to the room at 10, with fruits, veggies , mek and sun accompanying her. Mek had a packet of Knorr Hot n Sour soup and some kinda mixture that was supposed to be added to the veggie salad. Before they knew a full fledged menu had been planned for a special and healthy dinner.

Menu:
1. Hot n sour soup (with some kinda noodles added to it which ultimately made it taste like manchow)
2. Doritos with cheese ('Bahrain ki cheese ' if i may add. again, refer to the post- 'college...' for clarification)
3. Veggie salad with some kinda mixture in it :P
4. Fruit salad

Now came the most important part of it all- cutting the fruits and veggies. They sent Sun to fetch Doritos and cheese from mek’s room (her room is filled with all these yum things from Bahrain). Abhu was on her laptop, quickly saying a bye to all the 5 people with whom she was chatting at a time ( Tn- her very very good friend from skul , Suk, and 3 other friends from MIT ). Meanwhile, Shi ( who is good at cutting fruits and veggies started peeling off the cucumber and cutting it. Shi unaware of Abhu’s poor cutting and chopping skills handed her an apple to cut. Abhu tried to do her best, but she must have looked extremely comical trying to gingerly cut the apple into two, cause Mek and Shi coulnot control their giggles. As soon as the apple was cut into two, Abhu jumped to do an impromptu jig, elated at finally having cut a fruit into half with a knife. Heheee! Though she abandoned any attempt to cut the fruit into smaller pieces, she then took up the work of adding chat masala to the fruit salad.(u can see the pic above :P) Meanwhile, Mek prepared the soup adding noodles and other ingredients which she thought would make it yum.

With loud music playing in the room, sun cutting onions, all of them sniffing and removing tears from their eyes, thanks to the onions, they had an amazing time preparing this meal!

R n R (Roadies and Raghu)

Iam not sure, if I contribute even an iota to the viewership of MTV HeroHonda Roadies (hope I got the entire name correct) and form a part of the millions who watch it open mouthed, seated at the edge of their seats, their backs bent forward in interest, with hundreds of multicolored , animated visions flashing past their already-overexcited cerebrums, where they imagine themselves to be right there and doing it all.

No! iam not here to express my keen desire to be a Roadie, coz I have none such desires, neither am I gonna criticize the judges or the tasks that the contestants are made to do, because I feel all of them they have an idea about what they are getting into and hence I have no right to comment on their decision.

I am here to give my opinion on one one of the esteemed judges- Raghu.

I admit I have not been a regular viewer of this show in the past, owing to certain unavoidable reasons, but now, in college, when I got hold of the audition episodes of this show, I couldnot help but get hooked on to it. I remember, two years ago, when I first saw the auditions, I couldnot help but sympathize with the contestants who were mercilessly grilled by Raghu. It was beyond my comprehension as to how someone could be so rude towards people, unnecessarily creating a commotion. But now, when I see the auditions for roadies 5.0 taking place, iam actually amazed by how much good it does to the contestants who get a chance to have a interview with the judges. It is very obvious that most of the people who want to get into this show, are not very clear bout why they wanna do it, save the fame and money part involved with it and whether they have it in them or not. After getting a good dose of character analysis from the judges, iam sure a person with an attitude open to self-improvement, will do very well for himself in the future.

I must admit, I was really awed by Raghu’s sharp sense of analysis and the frank way with which he expressed his opinions. There are very few people in this world who actually give a true and unbiased opinion on things and undoubtedly, Raghu currently tops my list of such people. I actually feel he is a very good judge of character. Being rude and testing the patience of the contestants, forms an inseparable part of his job, which I think he executes magnificently. On top of that, from some recent episodes that I saw, I feel he makes an excellent counselor, though a very harsh one. I have never come across a person who is so sure of himself, has his fundas crystal clear and has confidence oozing out of every cell of his body. U know, I have heard of most of the contestants biting their finger nails and almost peeing in their pants at the thought of their encounter with Raghu ? But I think he will be a very interesting person to meet……

Its 10:30 in the evening and iam sitting outside my hostel. The thought of going into my hostel , despite having an official perm till 1 (thanks to my dance practices) seems very foolish. Iam not exactly in the best of moods. Just one of those same stupid mood swings, I guess. I am lost in thoughts when a group of friends pass by. Inspite of being in an awful mood, I smile and wave a wannabe-cheery “wassup”.

This is one incident, which has happened to me loads of times. Not just in college, even in many social gatherings. This is what is generally termed as “social obligations”.

Now, after having spent 5 months in college, I have finally realized the importance of these social obligations but that does not make me change my opinion about it. I still don’t get any valid justification for it. I still don’t like the behind-the-mask personality. Why cant we just be ourselves? why do we have to smile when we dont feel like? why do we have to be cordial to people whom we hate from the core of our heart? Why this two faced personality? All this just because we live in a society and well, havta be good to everyone for well.... our own benifit??

It may arise from the fact that there are loads of people around all the time and there are some emotions which one may not want to display in public.

*sigh* I wish life was not so complicated. I wish I never felt lonely despite being surrounded by 20 other people. I dunno if its just me or there are others who feel the same way. It is as if when you want to be alone, no one allows you to do so. And when you are in the mood to party, there is no one to accompany you and enjoy with you. I wonder why my tastes are so different from the others. I just can’t seem to figure it out.

Does life in a hostel do this to you? I have seen many other friends also go through a similar phase aswell. Iam too frustrated to think bout it now. Probably a good night’s sleep will help me gather my thoughts. It always does. And well…if not for anything else, I like these “weird phases” because it atleast gives me the chance or blog:P

It kinda becomes mandatory in order to achieve peace of mind.

blah!!!!

Why am I feeling so restless today? This place is not new to me. This is what I chose for myself and I have no regrets bout it. Absolutely none. Its probably the fact that um not feeling well today coupled with…well…home sickness that’s making me feel so weird.

Dunno….

Guess I will take a few days to get into the mould of things,but I don’t wont those few days to be HELL! And to top it off…its my birthday in a few days…(shhhhh!!!! I don’t want too many people to know) lolz…see…how confused I am??? Writing it in my blog and not wanting people to know. Heheee…

Um feeling too dirty…guess should have a nice hot bath…after that 12 hr long bus journey…that terrible journey…twisting and turning in that highly uncomfortable seat. *disgusted luk* and then all that unpacking, cleaning the dust….heheee…hostel lyf doesnot sound too inviting, does it?

But then again, it’s the way one looks at thing. Probably another few hours of sleep will do me good (and that’s gonna make it like some 14 hours that ive slept).

Anyways…adieu till my next post which um sure I will write in a much better mood and which I sincerely hope will be quite soon :)

College...

Sheesh!!!! Its been 4 whole months since i blogged!!!! Well....its been 4 months since i joined college too. Life has been SO busy that ive barely had time to sit and gather my thoughts. I have to admit that there have been loads of instances when i’ve wanted to blog but i just couldn’t due to many reasons :P and yes...i would like to partly blame it on the unavailability of WIFI in our block. Now that we have FINALLY ( yes...i hope iam able to convey the sense of relief i experience, through my words) got wifi, i promise to try my best to be as regular as possible with my blog.
So, lemme first introduce to you the members of our madhouse (its really surprising how iam able to find crazy people like me where ever i go. I must not be DAT crazy you know...*thoughtful look*).
1> Shi- (my roomie)- well....this is one thing i HAVE to thank orkut for. She was the first girl from my college whom i met online, and since we kinda had similar choices and didn’t want to be stuck with a complete stranger in our first sem in college, we decided to become roommates. And am i not glad for that!!!! We seem to be SO similar!! There is loads we have in common, from our past experiences to our liking for dance, our choice of movies and music, etc etc. So basically, though she can be VERY careless at times and irritates me with her endless talks on the phone (she can be on the phone for hours!!)...um happy sharing a room with her.
2> Sun-(my neighbour)- the three of us, i.e sun, shi and myself, bonded from the time we were in the 7th block (our temporary hostel block which its own stories and incidents, about which i shall blog some other day;) ) man!!! She is such a hypochondriac!!!! We are really dreading the day when she might fall sick (though i hope it never happens)coz if that happens then she’ll either drive us mad, or herself become insane.We keep pulling her leg and she too get back at us whenever she can. Its almost like the three of us share a room . Another very “prominent feature” of sun is that she has this very irritating habit of dropping almost everything she holds (sheesh!!!she’s definitely gonna throttle me if she ever comes across this post :P) and you HAVE to keep your food drawer locked when she’s around coz if you don’t you find anything left in it with her “only one bite”. But jokes apart, she’s a sweetheart. We can bitch bout anything and everything under the sun and both of us love gossiping and eating ;)
3> Mek- Dunno where to start writing bout her from. She can be a lil baby and and at the same time one of the most mature person for her age , if she wants to. I love pulling her leg because of her fetish for “Bahrain ki coke”, “Bahrain ki coffee”, “Bahrain ka pizza” etc etc... She’s one person you can bank upon to accompany you, whenever you wanna go somewhere or do something. This chick can’t say no! And guess what??? She too is crazy bout astro related stuff!!! Man!!! I was so glad to find someone with whom i could discuss bout all this.
4> Sho- she’s the intellectual one in our group. Loves to go deep into philosophical stuff. You should see her belly dance!!! She’s awesome! A gem of a person. By the way, mek and sho are also roomies and since their room falls on the way to our’s , we always end up stopping by their room whenever we pass that way, and once we do that nothing can stop us from gossiping for hours (unless sho gives her “enough-lets-study-now” looks during exam time:P)

Um seriously very glad to have found such a wonderful group of friends here so soon. Oh yeah...i must tell you bout our “bhookad club” headed by mek and sun. All of us are big foodies and love to visit the night canteen or the “coffee dabba” in our block just 5 minutes before 12 (coz the canteen closes at 12 and so does our hostel door.) We love to give the matron “we-r-feeling-very-very-hungry-plz-let-us-out” looks just before 12 and leave her grumbling bout how she cant even go to sleep peacefully at 12. Wicked...aint it *devilish look* .Thank goodness, all of us love hanging out, going to the disc and doing “bakchodi”:P . in short, we rock!!!

THE LAST GOODBYE

Tonight the clouds shall weep again,

The moon shall hide its visage,

The leaves will rustle their goodbyes,

And the stars will hold back their rays.

One last look, one last gaze,

One last tear …..

This gush of emotions

Is leaving me fazed.

The thought of a new life beckons me,

But what I am leaving behind

holds me strong.

My reasoning power fails me,

It tells me I am wrong.

I cant leave things so precious,

so dear to my soul.

I cant leave behind a part of myself

as I move ahead, hunting for more.

But decisions are taken.

Plans are made.

I can do nothing but stick to them,

resolving, to never-ever let the memories fade.

As my friends bid me adieu

with teary eyes…..

my family hugs me one last time,

an emptiness creeps into my being,

I feel devoid of life.

I can never return back

the humungous amount of love ive got,

can never find people like these again.

But the little that I can do

Is to make a promise….

To be there for them

Whenever they need me;

in both happiness and pain.

yay!! my choice is right!!!

Your Learning Style: Curious and Brilliant

k..i havta give credit to tj for this. but see see...its so true for me too:D You are a very abstract learner. You can grasp even the most complex theories. You Should Study: Astronomy Biology Chemistry Computer Science Linguistics Mathematics Philosophy Physics Psychology p.s. no wonder i njoyed chemy and phy too;)

What Should You Study?

0th sense

*sigh* I never knew that blogging would some day become so difficult. I have been seriously trying to blog for the past few weeks, but have failed miserably. Each time, I open a new word document and resolve to put up a new post on my now-almost-non existent- blog, I fail to collect my thoughts and put them down. There is so much to share, but its so difficult to comprehend. I would conveniently like to put all the blame on my sheer joblessness which has made my life quite uninteresting. But nevertheless, this epoch of my life has made me aware of so many things that were always there around me, but I could never really grasp them. I would like to call this as my 0^th sense. (0^th coz it’s the most basic sense that one should possess and well, everyone does possess it, but its just that, we fail to realize it. Or maybe, we can term it as an amalgamation of all the 6 senses. Which ever way u wanna see it, I term it as 0^th sense.)

Thanks to this new sense of mine, I have begun to notice how beautiful the lane in front of my house looks, specially if it has just rained…*dreamy eyes* .

I went up to my terrace after ages, and sat on the roof tiles, getting a magnificent view of the entire neighbourhood:P (this is something I use to do a lot when I was a child).

I realized wat a lotta fun it was to chase my lil cousin all around the house; to emotionally blackmail him, about going away in less than 3 weeks.

What spending time with friends is, specially when u know after a few days u wont be meeting them for God knows how long.

Also, I have again realized how wonderful and exhilarating shopping can be. (yeah…it had been almost 2 years since I went out to the market, to buy something for myself ) *sigh* .

Not to forget my new-found-pleasure in sketching. I could sit and do that for hours.

It also made me realize how much i dislike un-invited, “drop-in” guests at my place. Its not because I don’t like them or something, it mostly arises from the fact that i am pretty hyper and well…dressed in my oldest and loosest clothes at home, which I don’t allow my mom to throw away solely because of the comfort factor. To add to my wunnerful looks, I keep dancing, hopping and shouting, all over the house, playing with my cousins, or singing in a not-very-melodious voice, and it becomes quite embarrassing for me, if all of a sudden, while coming down the stairs, I come face to face with people sitting in our drawing room *sheepish grin* . Er..my parents and family members don’t exactly get very pleased either.

Yes… one more thing. Its not exactly as if I like this 0^th sense too much, cause it also makes my feel pretty foolish sometimes. For example, today in the morning, my comp was not getting switched on. There was some problem with the UPS. I had been trying for 10 minutes to set it right, but couldn’t do it. Just them my bro (whose 4 yrs younger to me) walks in, asks me the problem, bends down, moves his fingers on the UPS (I doubt he did anything. Hmph! ) and well..my stupid comp switched on almost instantly. It made me realize how unreliable and partial my comp is.

Well..well..out of the world of nostalgia!!! Yeah..so basically this 0^th sense is nothing but realization, observation and appreciation . Iam glad I found it and in time too, coz it gave me some moments which I am definitely going to cherish for a long time to come.

SKETCHES -3

Phew!! This one took me the longest to make. Just cudnt get the features right. Not that they are perfect now :P but still…. Much better than what I made in my first attempt. What u see here is perhaps the 8^th edited version of it, after heeding to all the criticism incurred upon me by my mom and my chachis :P they one difficult lot to please :P

This is just ainwai tp type sketch.

Dunno why I sketched this :S
P.S. all suggestions and healthy criticism towards my work is most welcome:D