Well!! i dont really think dat dis is da best way to start one's first post, on one's first attempt to blog(no, actually second.lol), but well...dats wat iam!! Actually...this is wat prompted me to start blogging (oops!!sorry... "reblogging") . so i guess its best to write bout it...so here it goes...
Actually, before plunging into the story, it will b better to tell u guyz dat iam a total capricorn. Yep... my friends will too gladly vouch for dat. From my "wierd moodswinds" to my obsession with stuff, um a capri to da hilt. No..actually i may be having a bit of my ascendent's influence..(Gawd!!snehudi..wont u b pleased!!) Anyways...so...its bout yestrday. u know, sometimes u go through these wierd phases in ur life when nothing seems to go right for u. well!! this had been happening with me for quite sometime. But yesterday took da cake. I went through an alchemy of emotions.
I woke very happy and all ready to face a new day, still rejuvinated by my previous evening's(thats monday) dandia-dancing(p.s. i simply luuuuv dancing. any form of it. Just music n me....) Though initially i was quite skeptical bout going for the the dance, coz i didnt want to miss my tutorial classes...(okay!! no need to roll ur eyes... i told u i was a typical capricorn), my passion for dance took the better of me.lolz.... so i did go and enjoyed myself throughly... The icing on da cake was when i came to know that nothing much had been done in class and the teacher had only done t.p.(time pass !!) I couldnt believe my luck.. All of a sudden i started feeling the festive spirit around me and practically waltzed my way into the evening. That was when my bubble of happiness was ruthlessly punctured . As usual i went for my tutorial classes in da evening(remind me to dedicate a whole post to it and tell u bout the people n things that happen there. on second thoughts, one post wont b enough to completely describe the atrocious functioning of the management and da wierd people present there) Anyways.. as usual me, along with snehudi n tejudi(my gr8 friends and life-savers at the insti. thats bcoz am da only girl admist 27 guys in my batch!!) were having our usual in-da-corridor chat wen one of da teacher who teaches us chemy beckoned me and started to congratulate me on winning the chemistry Olympiad. Man... i was bewildered.. not bcoz i had won it, but bcoz i had not even appeared for it. When i told him this, he couldnot believe it. He said," what?? u didnot even appear?? and here i was knowing that u would have definitely done well at it.." Man... it was perhaps the one of the most dissapointing moments of my life. I know that i might b making a huge issue outta nothing, but trust me,hurting people who believe in me is one of my worst fears.
Well... this was not it. it could just be called the beginning. The entire 45 mins of his class,he kept expressing his disappointment. How i passed time is something that i cant express. I felt like burying myself somewhere and not emerging out till that teacher underwent a memory transplant. anyways. Before the next class started (and that was almost immediately coz da next teacher, also a chemy one, dosent waste time jumping from one class to the other.. oops!! i hope he doesnt come across this. lolz..)the guy whom i had asked whether anything had been taught the previous day, nicely tells me that sir had only taught a bit of nomenclature. Before i could register the shock of not coming prepared to class and worst still, realizing that that guy had had the guts to lie to me,the teacher walked in. And lo behold!! He had also developed a sudden urge to test us on what he had taught the previous day. As a gave him bewildered looks,hoping he would take pity on me, i realized that i had no other option but to answer that test and face the humiliation. So i went ahead with it and answered what ever i could using my common sence.( yes tejudi nd snehudi, i have loads of it unlike wat u think. huh!!!) Though i managed to do better than wat i expected... i had further dissapointment to face. That was when i realized that my answers to a compitative exam which i had appeared for, the prevoius sunday were all terribly wrong. That was it... i couldnt bear it.
I spent the rest ofthe evening(whatever of it was left) brooding over the events of the day. Till now i havent been able to figure where i went wrong. Iam a very dissapointed and frusrated person at present. Again i have been proved thats all fair in love and war(i.e; if u call academic compitition a war). I simply dont know where to go from here. i have lost all the zeal to enjoy the pujas. All i could think of was to pen (or rather type)my thoughts in the hope that i would be able to get some answers from it(half expecting it to speak to me.. lolz... i guess um hallucinating). Hope that i get some answers by da time i decide to post somthing else. And... that better be soon...
