Tuesday, December 26, 2006

The guilt factor

GUILT- this 5 lettered monster surely knows how to make ur life hell. Trust me.. there can be nothing worse than feeling guilty. and u actually don’t need a very big reason to feel guilty. Even the smallest of things can make u feel, “omg!!! I should’nt have done dat. WHY did I do it.???”

I believe that one should never do anything which would make one feel guilty afterwards. But….*sly grin* the tug of war between the devil and the God is not an easy one. The devil’s call is the most easy to hear due to which, I do end up feeling guilty most of the tyms. Lol!! So basically, this tym I’ve come up with a superb plan to get rid of all these stupid guilty feelings that r making life hell. and um gonna do that by blogging bout it. *he he*. After all…its more important to “realize” ur mistakes.

So here I go… um guilty of:

* keeping this space empty for so long.

( and yes, sukrit will have to be credited for that. He askd me n number of tyms “ kya re, blog update nahin karti..”. so basically, he is responsible in making me feel guilty:p

* being online for hours…..

( really…ive become quite a net addict. Must control yaar.)

*of stopping in front of my mirror each tym I pass it on my way to my cupboard, from my table :p ( whoever told the carpenter to place the mirror there??? Not my fault. Wat say??)

* of finishing off all the chocolates in my drawer.( Lol!! My dresses will vouch for that. They curse me each tym I put them on.)

* of attending only I.T classes at college. ( I should not be felling guilty bout this, considering the condition of our college, but still….he!!he!! okay sn and tj. I know u know why um feeln guilty. lol!! )

*of er…um…. Taking out my anger and frustration on people of didn’t have anything “much” to do with it. (plz note: “much”)

*of not being with someone, when that someone needed me the most.

*of bullying my younger bro and my lil cousins:p (luk… even I need to bring out the mischievous side in me)

* of calling my chemy teacher in college “tomato”. (no re…she’s gud. I will miss her.)

and finally…

*of wasting this space and misusing the freedom to blog by writing this crap:P

okay... i needed to add a few things.

*of switching off my alarm and going back to sleep:P ( i wonder howdid i forget to mention this earlier. i mean, i do this each morning and then feel really guilty. actually, i dunno whether i feel guilty bout switching off da alarm on my cell and oversleeping or feel guilty bout da fact dat i shut off my fav song "its da hardest thing" , the mp3 version of which is my alarm tone:P)

*when pple *ahem* tell me that they know how hardworking i am and how hard i must be studyn. (i actually pity such pple coz they dunno how wrong they r. but at the same tym i do feel bad wen i realize that what they say is wat i actually must be doing. lol!!!)