Maybe, its one of my “weird moodswings”, but I suddenly find this world to be quite hostile and foreboding.
-Yesterday, I switched on the TV to find all channels flooded with news about Bob woolmers death under “mysterious circumstances”, with the police suspecting foul play.
But I did not pay much attention to it then.
-today, the entire morning, I have been hearing about the new developments in this case, and can feel myself shudder at the uncertainty of life, or rather I should say,at the uncertainty of death.
-not to forget the new developments in the Nithari serial killings. It shows just how brutal ,savage and barbarous human beings can become.
-then the trial of Praveen Mahajan. Can one trust anybody in this world?????
- to add to all this, as I opened the newpaper in the morning today, there was this huge article about an engineering student being abducted and being brutally murdered, possibly by his friends. Phew!!! See..i told u, it was better to be insane, than to have a mind and think about and understand all this. It makes life even more difficult.
-and…well…I finished a Sidney Sheldon book, yesterday morning, which dealt with 3 cases of murder and castration, by a woman, who had MPD (multiple personality disorder). And her motive behind these murders was even more ghastly.
-I did try to turn my mind away from all this and changed the channel to MTV. But, they played 3 songs in succession, which made me even surer of the fact that the world was definitely NOT on my side that day. Those 3 songs (which I better not mention), made me feel even worse, bringing out certain memories which I would conveniently like to forget.
-I wish this had been it. But NO….how could I be at peace??? I switched the TV off, and plugged on my MP3 player. Music always makes me feel better:D but today, I s’pose nothing can make me feel gud. As I DJd the player , it played the worse song it possibly could have. Actually, I really like dat song, but for that moment, I was probably not best choice. It was a ghazal by Jagjit Singh. (he’s damn gud. Trust me!!), with the lyrics…
“hum jise gunguna nahin sakte…..
hum jise gunguna nahin sakte…..
waqt ne aisa geet kyon
zingadi dhoop, tum
tum ko dekha toh yeh khayal aaya…”
(lol!!! Okay. For all u non-ghazal lovers, this must be quite boring, but I really love his ghazals.)
-while iam still at how bad the world is, I might as well mention my cell phone which has also turned hostile towards me. I refuses to get properly charged, automatically gets switched off when a call comes, and keeps getting hung:(
- now…even my “dear” comp seems to have turned his face away from me, coz it has become extremely slow I am typing this out at the rate of 20 letters per minute.
p.s- i just recieved ANOTHER and hopefully the last packet from FIITJEE, with all papers and stuff, which iam s'pose to solve before i encounter "the demon" on 8th april. but...this has left me feeling even more guilty. A tiny voice in my head tells me," i should be studying now, rather than blogging."
