The Last Time

Why does evrything in this world have a last time to it? Both good and bad thing in life, have to have a last time to them. You realize that what had been happening wont happen any longer. If it marks an end to certain miseries and the bad days of one’s life, then “the last” day is most welcome. But why do the happy moments also have a last time??

Yes…I may not be intelligible to anyone reading this, but today, I write this post in a very nostalgic mood. It feels very weird. I know that changes are a part of life and one must learn to graciously accept them and mould oneself according to what lies ahead. Yet, anything I think, fails to pacify me. Maybe it is because I am a Capri.(Yes, it very true that your sun sign speaks volumes about your behaviour and reaction toward situations. Sn, will u vouch for that please??) Read any Linda stuff and u’ll agree that capris do find it difficult to start their lives all over again, in a completely different environment, specially, if they are very happy with the way things had been shaping up.(no people.u are reading the right stuff. This is MY blog. Not sn’s. I have also got a lot into astro, u know:P)

I remember my last day in school. It was like a tradition and a fashion to cry on the last day of school. Everyone, including my teachers, thought that I would be one of the first ones to break into sobs. But they were terribly surprised to see my wishing everyone adieu with a BIG 100mega watt smile on my face. Infact, I had a few classmates even tell me that they never expected me to leave school that way. But the truth was that I was extremely happy to leave school coz I knew that future could definitely not be worse than the last 4 years of my school life.

But I cant say the same today.i think I have enjoyed every bit of the last two years of my life. I might have been living in a fantasy world all through, but I at least had the freedom to dream. I was able to express myself the way I wanted to. People knew me for what I was and how I did , rather than nurture preconceived notions about me.

But the good things in life always come to an end faster. They are always in a hurry to reach the finishing line. And today, I think I have reached that line. But I am not going to brood over what I am leaving behind. Rather, I am going to move ahead with all the good experiences (and a few of the not so pleasant ones as well) that I have had so that in future, I can always look back at these two years and know that it will bring a smile to my face:)

Lot has happened over the past few weeks. Um even more close to my exams and I don’t know what um doing (definitely NOT studying). It’s very weird when people, who meet me, keep hinting that I look anything but a student whose going to appear for her BOARD exams in less than 3 weeks. The weird part about is that I know that I should be feeling guilty but I actually don’t feel anything. It is as if I’ve become immune to everything. That ive been acting like a zombie since the past few days, is another story all together.

Another new development is the fact that me and tj have been like big pillars of support for each other since the past few days. Both of us keep inspiring each other to study. Dunno how much good it has done.Tj must have developed "lasha phobia" thankz to all the trouble that i've been giving her. Still…for a person like me, who needs to be motivated hundreds of time each minute, things haven’t been easy. Every bit of help is most welcome specially when out of the blue, things that have been buried far outta sight, reappear.

Also, of late I have been doing things that I enjoy doing, rather than do things which I should be doing. I’ve been busy sketching, listening to music and helping my parents in one of their projects, which has given me a great opportunity to actually discover what I like doing and stuff that I am good at.

SRK has been doing a great job on KBC (though “some” people may not quite agree with me:P) I miss no episode of it. I simply love has dry, sarcastic, typical “Scorpio” wit (okay tj…stop flying babes) I feel its very wrong of people to compare him to Big B. both of them have their own style and approach towards the game. And you have to agree he gave that he gave that teacher from “jeend” a good one by going and giving her mother the cheque, instead of giving it to her. What an attitude she had!!!

Thankfully, Coffee with Karan has again started. I use to watch it religiously in my 10^th STD. Its kinda fun to watch. Atleast better than those “saas-bahu” serials, where the protagonist dies n number of times, gets married 2n times and is betrayed 3n times.

Finally….i dunno when I’ll be able to put up my next post and I dunno WHAT I’ll be putting up as my next post, but I serioualy hope I don’t have to put up the thing I think I will have to put up as my next post. So basically, since um losing my head and writing all rubbish, I think I should wrap up and concentrate on the chemy exam that I have tomorrow. (yeah!!! What a waste of valentine’s day. *sob sob*)