Sunday, May 27, 2007

just a thought

Days are passing like crazy. Cant believe iam already nearing the end of may!! Kiran desai’s “inheritance of loss” has kept me busy since a couple of days, i.e after I returned back from my “extended” vacation (as sn likes to put it). Apart from the regular net surfing er…well orkutting has been happening at quite a rapid pace as well. And yeah… I must mention that sn has got thru “the best” law college in the country but we poor souls have not been considered worthy of a even a small treatL *sigh*.

While iam still on tenterhooks, having no clue what my results will turn out to be like, people all around me have been celebrating, the reason being their results, which have been quite satisfying (or so they say). I admire the sheer hard heartedness of all those people associated with my board, who think its good to delay results and think they are being nice and kind by being the last ones in the whole country to declare results. Pathetic!!! The alternation between hope and despair, is sure as hell, wrecking my nerves.

Yesterday, I was watching Indian Idol (which,btw, is the only tv show I watch these days.) It is one of those very few shows where the viewer doesnot know whether to happy for the selected candidates or feel sad for those who could not make it. There is such a heavy dose of emotions associated with it, that people who are so very use to Ekta Kapoor and her saas-bahu serials, are also awed by it. On seeing the contestants wait for their results, I couldnot help but compare my condition to their. I could actually understand what they might be feeling and trust me, it doesnot feel very good.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Solitude






When the heart aches in solitude,
No gates can stop the tears from gushing out.
Loneliness seeps into every cell of the body.
Happiness, simply seems to retard.


With no emotions left to feel,
no thoughts left to chase,
memories engaged in feud,
her heart ached in solitude…..


Her eyes searched in vain,
for something…..
or maybe someone…….
her head screamed out warnings.
Everything appeared so foreboding.


She wished she could listen to her heart
but there were more important things to be done.
Her life stood on a crossroad.
Too many things she ought to have done,
Even more number of things that she wanted to do.
But how was it possible,
When her heart ached in solitude????


It ached for a friend…..
someone she could open her heart out to.
People who knew her, didn’t know her at all.
Those who wanted to know her,
were never let close enough.
Enclosed within a self-created wall of aloofness,
Where all music was mute,
She lived a life of solitude…..