Funny guy!!!

Life seems to have become quite monotonous for me:( each day seems to be just like the previous day. *sigh* the problem is not that I have nothing to do. The problem is that there is so much I want to do but cant do, thanks to my conscience which cant seem to keep its tiny voice shut. Iam supposed to be preparing for my upcoming entrances. Phew!! Iam tired. I need a break. Well..i have been kinda taking a break for the past one week, but still…*sheepish grin*

So basically I decided to break the monotonous getting up-coming online- studying-sleeping-eating and again sleeping routine of mine. Actually I owe this one to my mom. She has been behind me to go swimming with my bro and my three little cousins, but I had been quite nicely giving excuses (which I agree sound very lame to me now) and escaping the torture of going out in the heat at 3:30:P but iam happy I went. Not only did I actually enjoy the change I even met a very funny little fellow, about whom I must tell.

This guy (no actually boy coz he mustn’t be more than 10) was busy lazing around in the deep end of the pool. As I swam my way there, I saw him looking at me as if he badly needed to talk to someone and was litrally bursting to say something.

Me- hi!

Boy-hi!

Me- whats your name?

Boy- Shiv Kumar Nanda (he said quite pompously)

With this, he did not even wait for me to ask anything further. He himself began to tell his tale.

Boy- Actually one boy told me throw my water goggles into the pool and dive in to get it, but my lungs which had not managed to arrange much supply of oxygen before diving, became exhausted. The lungs failed to accommodate oxygen into them and because my lungs had not brought oxygen with them I was not able to come up.

(I took two minutes to understand what he meant. Didn’t know whether I should sympathise with the 10 year old or giggle at his extremely funny presentation)

Me- awww!!! Then how did u manage to surface??

Boy- it was only because of Almighty’s grace that I am standing in front of you to tell u this.

Me- but u should be carefully. U maynot be so lucky next time.

Boy- shrugs his shoulders and again throws his goggles into the water and dives below.

Instinctively I look around but realized that there was no other “boy” in the pool who could have told him to do what he did according to his little story:P

He, to put it in Ash’s words (as its her BIG day today), was a funny guy!!!

NEWS channels or bollywood agents??

Height of idiocy!!! Seriously!! These days news channels have nothing better to do.

Abhu got up early on Friday and tuned in to MTV for their kick ass mornings. (must mention that this really reminds Abhu of suk :D ) so basically, after hearing to a few numbers while finishing up her daily activities, abhu switched on to a news channel to catch up with the world she is suppose to be living in(as she prefers to lives in her own little world most of the time:D) lo and behold!!! It was not the usual “so-and-so party calling a strike” or Mr. Arjun singh presenting another of his *ahem* proposals. Rather, the news channel was airing a special program on the “WEDDING OF THE DECADE”. Yes folks!! Its all about “the most eligible bachelor” in the country (and for some, even in the world) getting married to the dainty damsel Ms. Aishwary Rai ( to-be bachchan)

All the hype is understandable. Afterall its “abhishek” getting married (or is it because its former miss world -aishwarya getting married??? Iam confused!!!) no..no..people. It is because BOTH are getting married:P

So basically…this program contained all the details of the marriage (or rather all the details the the media could get hold of) From a view of the mandap at the bachchan residence, to an “exclusive” interview of the gardener who was preparing special mehendi leaves “so that the colour of Ms Rai’s hands enchants everybody who see’s it “ (this is the english version of what the news channel said). Not to forget the tailor who is stitching the sherwani for Jr.bachchan. The special program had it all. Maybe even more, coz I didn’t see the show from the beginning.

I have absolutely no problem if people are SO interested to know about all this. But what pisses me off the most is that it’s the NEWS CHANNELS which are doing it. Is our country, and for that matter the whole world, facing such a dearth of problems which need attention that they have shifted their focus to such events? Its ridiculous!!! Don’t we have enough programs dealing with bollywood gossip?? There mustn’t be any single channel existing which does not play host to such a program. Abhu thinks that it is the work of those programs to showcase such details. As it is the media has turned into nothing more than a robot who simply informs the people of what has been happening. Earlier, it use to be the media which use to be used to make things happen. Didn’t it play such an important role in our freedom struggle?? Wasn’t THAT the power the media held?? Haven’t they spent enough time already, running behind the duo and their family all over the country, as they visited temples?? Hasn’t all the match-making over the years satiated their greed to get their TRP’s soaring??

Even the recent news of more killing –kidnapping in Ranchi and Bihar isn’t enough to keep them from airing their “special program”. And iam not talking of a single channel. In the evening, there were four other channels airing similar things. They even got a numerologist to predict Ms. Rai’s future in the Bachchan family, which according to the numerologist, would be similar to that of her would-be mother-in-law. Phew!!! I am stumped. I know that India is quite a bolly-savvy nation but there is a limit to everything. Agreed that the competition is tough, but give us a break!! Arent the hundred ads which the show after every 10mins of news reporting irritating enough?? Moreover aren’t the celebrities’ human-beings afterall?? I don’t know which way things are heading to. But its certainly appalling to see the level to which News channels have fallen to, just to increase their TRPs.

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Life beyond examz

Phew!!! Examz are finally over (atleast for the time being). Actually they were over three days back :P I am now in fulltoo enjoyment mood. I don’t feel like looking at my book cupboard. Even my room is upset at having lost a full time companion coz its been three days since I have spent quality time in my room. And this is saying something considering that I use to be cooped up in my room for most part of the day, till the 8^th.

But I have managed to clean up my room, which, believe me, was in a mess. I know certain people feel that MY room being in a mess means just 1 book slightly displaced from the shelf, but no. see the pics yourself. This, by my standard, is COMPLETE MESS !!!!!!

Anyways. So basically I have been really busy doing loads of stuff these days. That is, apart from brooding over my terrible IIT entrance, which deserves atleast a small mention here, considering that I had really been worked up bout it.

But I have moved on and I have been trying to turn over a new leaf. What better way to start my “zindagi sudharo” abhyan than by learning to cook!!! Yes folks. I have finally entered the kitchen. And when abhu enters the kitchen she doesnot cook anything ordinary. So basically I started with baking a cake. Yes!!! I baked a cake. Doesn’t it look yum???? Heehee!! But cakes don’t last long in our house. I bet I wont find I single piece to eat by tomorrow (i.e if I don’t tell anybody that I have baked it:P) but trust me, its tasting superb. Iam myself surprised at my culinary skills . Heehee!! Though I must mention that I wouldn’t have been able to make it without my mom’s guidance. And by the way sn… our “mission” has gone for a toss, atleast as far as I am concerned.

I have also been catching up with my long list of pending movies-to-be-seen

And have also started reading John Grisham. Iam yet to add a few new songs to my Mp3 player . I have my cupboard to clean. I have to go shopping. Oh!! Yes!! I haven’t done that since AGES!!!

Basically, I have my long list of things to be done and iam enjoying every bit of it.

Today... Not My Day !!!!

Maybe, its one of my “weird moodswings”, but I suddenly find this world to be quite hostile and foreboding.

-Yesterday, I switched on the TV to find all channels flooded with news about Bob woolmers death under “mysterious circumstances”, with the police suspecting foul play.

But I did not pay much attention to it then.

-today, the entire morning, I have been hearing about the new developments in this case, and can feel myself shudder at the uncertainty of life, or rather I should say,at the uncertainty of death.

-not to forget the new developments in the Nithari serial killings. It shows just how brutal ,savage and barbarous human beings can become.

-then the trial of Praveen Mahajan. Can one trust anybody in this world?????

- to add to all this, as I opened the newpaper in the morning today, there was this huge article about an engineering student being abducted and being brutally murdered, possibly by his friends. Phew!!! See..i told u, it was better to be insane, than to have a mind and think about and understand all this. It makes life even more difficult.

-and…well…I finished a Sidney Sheldon book, yesterday morning, which dealt with 3 cases of murder and castration, by a woman, who had MPD (multiple personality disorder). And her motive behind these murders was even more ghastly.

-I did try to turn my mind away from all this and changed the channel to MTV. But, they played 3 songs in succession, which made me even surer of the fact that the world was definitely NOT on my side that day. Those 3 songs (which I better not mention), made me feel even worse, bringing out certain memories which I would conveniently like to forget.

-I wish this had been it. But NO….how could I be at peace??? I switched the TV off, and plugged on my MP3 player. Music always makes me feel better:D but today, I s’pose nothing can make me feel gud. As I DJd the player , it played the worse song it possibly could have. Actually, I really like dat song, but for that moment, I was probably not best choice. It was a ghazal by Jagjit Singh. (he’s damn gud. Trust me!!), with the lyrics…

“hum jise gunguna nahin sakte…..

hum jise gunguna nahin sakte…..

waqt ne aisa geet kyon gaya…

zingadi dhoop, tum Ghana saaya…

tum ko dekha toh yeh khayal aaya…”

(lol!!! Okay. For all u non-ghazal lovers, this must be quite boring, but I really love his ghazals.)

-while iam still at how bad the world is, I might as well mention my cell phone which has also turned hostile towards me. I refuses to get properly charged, automatically gets switched off when a call comes, and keeps getting hung:(

- now…even my “dear” comp seems to have turned his face away from me, coz it has become extremely slow I am typing this out at the rate of 20 letters per minute.

p.s- i just recieved ANOTHER and hopefully the last packet from FIITJEE, with all papers and stuff, which iam s'pose to solve before i encounter "the demon" on 8th april. but...this has left me feeling even more guilty. A tiny voice in my head tells me," i should be studying now, rather than blogging."

I HAVE LOST MY SANITY SOMEWHERE!!!

Life is like the sea-tide,
sometimes high and sometimes low.
Now my heart weeps, the next moment it soars.
Hey!! I can see the sun smiling.
Oh my God!!! Now where did it suddenly go??
I hunt here,
I hunt there
I knock on this door
I peep over there.
Have i lost my sanity somewhere???
The high tide seems to have washed it away
and along with it my fears, I must say.
No mind, no thought
No thought, no worry
No worry, no care;
No hope and no despair.
And this is because I have lost my sanity somewhere.
I couldn’t care less,
Life is lot better this way.
BUT WHAT IF I FIND IT AGAIN
AND IT HAUNTS ME AS BEFORE???
Then again my heart shall weep for a moment
and the next, it shall soar.
The hope, the despair,
the mind ,the thought
the worry and all the care……..
No!!No!! it’s not fair.
Iam better insane
Without a worry to heed,
Oblivious of the sun and the tide,
Being me and simply me!!!!!

The Last Time

Why does evrything in this world have a last time to it? Both good and bad thing in life, have to have a last time to them. You realize that what had been happening wont happen any longer. If it marks an end to certain miseries and the bad days of one’s life, then “the last” day is most welcome. But why do the happy moments also have a last time??

Yes…I may not be intelligible to anyone reading this, but today, I write this post in a very nostalgic mood. It feels very weird. I know that changes are a part of life and one must learn to graciously accept them and mould oneself according to what lies ahead. Yet, anything I think, fails to pacify me. Maybe it is because I am a Capri.(Yes, it very true that your sun sign speaks volumes about your behaviour and reaction toward situations. Sn, will u vouch for that please??) Read any Linda stuff and u’ll agree that capris do find it difficult to start their lives all over again, in a completely different environment, specially, if they are very happy with the way things had been shaping up.(no people.u are reading the right stuff. This is MY blog. Not sn’s. I have also got a lot into astro, u know:P)

I remember my last day in school. It was like a tradition and a fashion to cry on the last day of school. Everyone, including my teachers, thought that I would be one of the first ones to break into sobs. But they were terribly surprised to see my wishing everyone adieu with a BIG 100mega watt smile on my face. Infact, I had a few classmates even tell me that they never expected me to leave school that way. But the truth was that I was extremely happy to leave school coz I knew that future could definitely not be worse than the last 4 years of my school life.

But I cant say the same today.i think I have enjoyed every bit of the last two years of my life. I might have been living in a fantasy world all through, but I at least had the freedom to dream. I was able to express myself the way I wanted to. People knew me for what I was and how I did , rather than nurture preconceived notions about me.

But the good things in life always come to an end faster. They are always in a hurry to reach the finishing line. And today, I think I have reached that line. But I am not going to brood over what I am leaving behind. Rather, I am going to move ahead with all the good experiences (and a few of the not so pleasant ones as well) that I have had so that in future, I can always look back at these two years and know that it will bring a smile to my face:)

Lot has happened over the past few weeks. Um even more close to my exams and I don’t know what um doing (definitely NOT studying). It’s very weird when people, who meet me, keep hinting that I look anything but a student whose going to appear for her BOARD exams in less than 3 weeks. The weird part about is that I know that I should be feeling guilty but I actually don’t feel anything. It is as if I’ve become immune to everything. That ive been acting like a zombie since the past few days, is another story all together.

Another new development is the fact that me and tj have been like big pillars of support for each other since the past few days. Both of us keep inspiring each other to study. Dunno how much good it has done.Tj must have developed "lasha phobia" thankz to all the trouble that i've been giving her. Still…for a person like me, who needs to be motivated hundreds of time each minute, things haven’t been easy. Every bit of help is most welcome specially when out of the blue, things that have been buried far outta sight, reappear.

Also, of late I have been doing things that I enjoy doing, rather than do things which I should be doing. I’ve been busy sketching, listening to music and helping my parents in one of their projects, which has given me a great opportunity to actually discover what I like doing and stuff that I am good at.

SRK has been doing a great job on KBC (though “some” people may not quite agree with me:P) I miss no episode of it. I simply love has dry, sarcastic, typical “Scorpio” wit (okay tj…stop flying babes) I feel its very wrong of people to compare him to Big B. both of them have their own style and approach towards the game. And you have to agree he gave that he gave that teacher from “jeend” a good one by going and giving her mother the cheque, instead of giving it to her. What an attitude she had!!!

Thankfully, Coffee with Karan has again started. I use to watch it religiously in my 10^th STD. Its kinda fun to watch. Atleast better than those “saas-bahu” serials, where the protagonist dies n number of times, gets married 2n times and is betrayed 3n times.

Finally….i dunno when I’ll be able to put up my next post and I dunno WHAT I’ll be putting up as my next post, but I serioualy hope I don’t have to put up the thing I think I will have to put up as my next post. So basically, since um losing my head and writing all rubbish, I think I should wrap up and concentrate on the chemy exam that I have tomorrow. (yeah!!! What a waste of valentine’s day. *sob sob*)

What is the world coming to????

I sometimes wonder, how selfish and stupid some people can be. I mean, I have seen and met quite a few characters who fit the bill perfectly, but what I saw yesterday was “the height”. I had a test at my tutorial yesterday, and there was this girl sitting in front of me. I’ve know that female since my school days. I knew what kinda girl she is and stuff, but, I guess I had not received a dose of her *ahem* antics since a long time. So yesterday, while the rest of the students sat and broke their heads over the stupid and annoying chemy paper, I sat bemused at God’s creations. Lol!!!

p.s. um gonna refer to her as “D” :P

First, it’s necessary for me to kinda give an idea about our seating arrangement. I sat on the 3^rd bench (thankfully alone). “D”sat right in front of me. Next to her sat another girl who was also in my school .To the right of “D” sat an extremely intelligent but quite a stupid fellow , who is in my batch at the insti.

So basically, as usual, “D” had not prepared for the test (or so it appeared). After about 1 and a1/2 hour into the test, “D” frantically looks around to search for a bakra who could help her answer at least a few questions. So she looks around and spots that fellow to her right. Since both of them were in the same batch at the insti before that guy shifted to my batch, she started pleading before him to give her the answers.

D- “please tell na… I don’t know anything in the short answer section. Please help me out.”

Guy – “array…even I don’t know yaar”

(quite good of him to lie to her:P but as it is not easy to fool a fool…..”

D- “array kuch toh batana. Please.” She goes on coaxing him to tell her the answers.

Finally,the guy melts.

Guy – “okay… I’ll write it on the question paper and give you”

D is very happy. She nicely takes the answer, copies it down to her own sheet and returns back the paper to that guy with a “oh!!!! U’re such a sweetheart” look.

Yucksie…. I was already feeling sick!!!

After finishing all this, D suddenly notices the girl to her right. Apparently the girl too was not prepared for the exam. She looks at “D” with helpless eyes.

D- “what happened??? You didn’t study for the test???”

Girl-shrugs her shoulders. She was thinking D would help her. (so was I. lol!!!)

D- “*chuck chuck” what yaar… tests are approaching. You should work hard. No problem. Learn from your mistake and next time study and come.”

With this, D nicely packed her stuff , submitted her paper and walked off, leaving both the girl and me stunned.

So well…..there ARE such people in this world. God bless the ones who sit next to them in the examination hall.

The guilt factor

GUILT- this 5 lettered monster surely knows how to make ur life hell. Trust me.. there can be nothing worse than feeling guilty. and u actually don’t need a very big reason to feel guilty. Even the smallest of things can make u feel, “omg!!! I should’nt have done dat. WHY did I do it.???”

I believe that one should never do anything which would make one feel guilty afterwards. But….*sly grin* the tug of war between the devil and the God is not an easy one. The devil’s call is the most easy to hear due to which, I do end up feeling guilty most of the tyms. Lol!! So basically, this tym I’ve come up with a superb plan to get rid of all these stupid guilty feelings that r making life hell. and um gonna do that by blogging bout it. *he he*. After all…its more important to “realize” ur mistakes.

So here I go… um guilty of:

* keeping this space empty for so long.

( and yes, sukrit will have to be credited for that. He askd me n number of tyms “ kya re, blog update nahin karti..”. so basically, he is responsible in making me feel guilty:p

* being online for hours…..

( really…ive become quite a net addict. Must control yaar.)

*of stopping in front of my mirror each tym I pass it on my way to my cupboard, from my table :p ( whoever told the carpenter to place the mirror there??? Not my fault. Wat say??)

* of finishing off all the chocolates in my drawer.( Lol!! My dresses will vouch for that. They curse me each tym I put them on.)

* of attending only I.T classes at college. ( I should not be felling guilty bout this, considering the condition of our college, but still….he!!he!! okay sn and tj. I know u know why um feeln guilty. lol!! )

*of er…um…. Taking out my anger and frustration on people of didn’t have anything “much” to do with it. (plz note: “much”)

*of not being with someone, when that someone needed me the most.

*of bullying my younger bro and my lil cousins:p (luk… even I need to bring out the mischievous side in me)

* of calling my chemy teacher in college “tomato”. (no re…she’s gud. I will miss her.)

and finally…

*of wasting this space and misusing the freedom to blog by writing this crap:P

okay... i needed to add a few things.

*of switching off my alarm and going back to sleep:P ( i wonder howdid i forget to mention this earlier. i mean, i do this each morning and then feel really guilty. actually, i dunno whether i feel guilty bout switching off da alarm on my cell and oversleeping or feel guilty bout da fact dat i shut off my fav song "its da hardest thing" , the mp3 version of which is my alarm tone:P)

*when pple *ahem* tell me that they know how hardworking i am and how hard i must be studyn. (i actually pity such pple coz they dunno how wrong they r. but at the same tym i do feel bad wen i realize that what they say is wat i actually must be doing. lol!!!)